When I was a little girl I had a List. I had a List of the all the things that my future dream husband was going to be and do and look like. I hid it under my parquet floorboards in my very 80's bedroom for a while and must have changed hiding places over the years as when I went back to look for it a few years ago it was gone.
And so it seems have all the good men!
No, thats a lie. There are good men around... There are funny, good looking, hardworking, kind, generous men everywhere. Theyre all just about 6- 10 years younger than me and when they find out how Ancient I am, it seems all bets are off, unless its just a one night stand youre looking for that is, which call me old fashioned, but I'm not.
Yes, Im being punished for being the little black sheep in the family. Instead of marriage, house and kids I went to sea when I was 22 , travelling and working and having the best 12 years of my life, but somehwere in those 12 years it seemd I have exchanged one dream for another. I have got to see pretty much most countries in this crazy world we live in, expereince so many different cultures I sometimes can't remember where I did what and with who. But what are these things if at the end of it you dont have anyone to share your memories with? Was it worth it??? Damn straight it was....I'll just have to keep hoping that some where on this planet there's another little black sheep out there. And according to The List the most important thing is he better make me laugh...............I'll need it when Im 90 and wheeling myself down the aisle.
Here's to accepting who we are,even if the young ones dont get it.
I never knew you were a little black sheep - I thought I was! Funny how perceptions of ourselves differ. I like little black sheep anyway. I think they are cute and unusual and special. And I am proud of you for swimming upstream and achieving something amazing with your life (by the way).
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